Yes.

My mother won't leave me alone.

Go away, mother.

I love you, but I have things to do. Oh my God, she just asked if I was "sick" of Coldplay. SHE'S ABSURD.

L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N.

GREAT song!!
My inspiration for these next few weeks, until I get back into the swing of things... I really needed to turn over a new leaf, forget about my depressing thoughts and past, and keep going with my life!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fbGUEelmzxo

~A special thank you to my best friend in the world, Amber Hopfensperger. <3 - You're the best.

-Keep breathing people!

NEW SEMESTER

Hello everyone!
So it is the start of my last semester of a high school student! Can you believe it's been four years!?
I can... I cannot wait to get out of high school and on with my life.

**AP is advanced placement- college coursework

Here is my schedule:
1st mod: *AP Psychology
2nd mod: Advanced Wind Symphony
3rd mod: AP Literature and Composition 12
4th mod: AP Government and Politics
5th mod: Senior release!
6th mod: Advanced Statistics and Probability
7th mod: AP Spanish 5


Then I have many extracurriculars and work, of course. Not to forget about homework, college applications and scholarships and umm...sleep.
Whatever that is ;)

Keep breathing people!!

Sorry guys...I've been slacking.

Hello beautiful people!!
Not that I have many followers or anything...but I have really been slacking on the posting. BUT TO BE FAIR, I just had finals week. Which meant that I was not going to allow myself to post anything, when I could be cramming for exams. :p I AM SORRY THOUGH!
So! News!
First: I was accepted into Hamline University! *yay* That's pretty nice, now I have been accepted into three schools! Choices choices...

Next...I just found out the amazing family I babysit for is moving to LONDON!! (For their dad's work) It is a sweet deal, and I am so happy for them! But, I will miss these children so much. I have literally watched them grow up, and they're like family now! <3 I WILL MISS YOU GUYS!

We have fun. :)

Hmmm. Well I know a lot of other things have happened..But honestly, I am too tired to write about them right now, and I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo wiped out from finals. I'm off to bed! Job interview tomorrow, and then sushi with my best friend Erik! Then...my other friend's 18th birthday party! Happy Birthday, Mike! :)

Until next time, keep breathing people!

-Sof <3



Best song in THE WHOLE WORLD.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1G4isv_Fylg&ob=av2n

Get Carried Away

My "feel good" show.

Also I love both of the movies...I shall be watching them AFTER my homework...:)

Look of the day!

I know I don't look the best, but I wanted to somehow show off my earrings and my headband!! They were both purchased at Forever 21 (my absolute FAVORITE store).

Today I am hoping to accomplish something....anything. I have a huge spanish project to finish, and a crap ton of homework to get to. I feel pretty gross today, so....stay tuned as to how this will go...

Keep breathing! <3

Friday the 13th.

Hello everyone! Happy Friday the 13th...

I've been nervous for something terrible to happen all day. :p
Actually, nothing major happened, it was pretty normal, I suppose. I just don't feel like myself right now, and my stomach hurts..A LOT. Ugh.
I have to go to pep band tonight, THEN I can come home and relax. (Hopefully.) Also, I have to get my lazy butt up early tomorrow to time for a huge swimming invite! *yay*...*sarcasm*
Anyway, lots of homework this weekend, babysitting tomorrow, scholarships and next week...FINALS.
Fingers crossed I survive.

Keep on keepin' on...and keep breathing too! <3

I made it!!

Hey guys! I'm back to report that I survived the Monday and Tuesday! (For further information, read 'How things change in a year.')
And now, after a long, grueling band concert (went well), I have to write three papers and study for AP Microeconomics, not to mention editing a poem, and writing two more poems. :p THE WORK NEVER ENDS. But that's all right, because I have a nice cup of warm chai tea, and I am listening to Passion Pit. :)
They're really good, if you haven't already, CHECK THEM OUT.
Especially: Dreams, Sleepyhead and Moth's Wings. :) Yay music.
Okay, I am off! Be back later to report how I survived writing my papers and getting Sh*t done!

Keep breathing everyone!

Neat, it's neat! (Hahahahaahahaa...)

An organized desk is a happy desk. A happy desk means better concentration. Better concentration means easier homework. Easier homework means happy Sofia. :)

*okay so I know the back wall part of the desk needs some work, but give me a break, people. I'm one of those "messy scratch note writers" ;p

We can do AP Microeconomics! Just kidding, we can't.

Me and my best friend Piper. :)

She makes me happy, hey, maybe you should get yourself a Piper!

Aweee:) We hate microeconomics so much. And culinary arts class. It's absurd.

How things change in a year.

Hello beautiful people, today's post will be on a serious note.

Today and tomorrow are very special days for me, they mark the beginning of a new me. (Believe me, I know how cheesy this sounds, just bear with me.) Last year was my junior year in high school, and if that is not difficult enough with all the advanced and AP classes, I lost myself completely to stress. To top that all off, I fell head over heels in love. In love with someone I knew I couldn't have, and though it was real, and, "he really loved me too..." sometimes it's not enough. I fought it, hard. We had a secret, and kept it well. Even though I knew it was killing me to be with him like that, it felt so good when I was. And, when he started to pull away, I reacted in a way I will always regret. I lied. I lied about my life to keep him close, to keep him wondering about me. This went on for a good amount of time.
I know for those of you reading this...who have absolutely no idea who I am...it must be hard to picture my whole situation, and nobody will ever know the whole story, except for him and I. That's all right, I am not telling people this because I want sympathy, understanding or criticism. Believe me, when the truth came out and my life fell to the floor, I got enough of it.
The reason I am sharing my story is because people need to hear that, sometimes, people mess up. We are not alone.
Anyway, it has been one year since I fell to pieces, and I am still here. Life is still crazy, and we're all still just breathing it in. It gets better, and I really found myself over the past year. I have friends who have been by my side since day one, my best friends. People still ask me about it too, from time to time, and that's okay. I'll tell them what I did.
I still see him around sometimes. He's doing all right, I hope, and I am good too.

That's it for this post, kids. I hope someone read this...If not, that's okay too, as long as I know it's out here.

Keep breathing, people.
-Sof

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JI-o25K6B-E&ob=av3e

(best song ever omg.)

Steps to being happy.

I'm hoping people won't judge my qualifications for determining steps to their happiness, I'm just sharing what seems to be working for me.
So this is post number one, and a few examples of things that make me happy. I am not going to give you the cliche "Fall in love and give someone your soul blah blah blah." BUT, these are genuine easily accomplished lists.
First off: Find your best friends and do something stupid. I'm not talking about the people you can't act yourself around, or the people who make you look good. I am talking about the kind of people you can awkwardly sit in silence with and it's completely normal. Yeah, we know, we're cool.

Next: Instead of all that coffee you drink, let's try some tea kids. I'm serious, it literally makes you feel one with Gandhi. Okay, maybe not that far. But it still helps. Also, try yoga. If you're peaceful in your body, hopefully your mind can get there too. :) Oh, and try Chai Tea, it's kind of the best thing in the world.

Third: And this is just a fact; EVERYONE should have a journal. Or two...or three. I have thirteen. (don't judge) They are a really great way to get rid of your stressful thoughts, and if you don't like to write journal entries, just free write, or try stream of consciousness. If all else fails, draw a pretty picture and put it on your fridge, as long as you have some sort of artistic/stress outlet.

Here are three of my favorite:)







Fourth: Fall in love...WITH A SPORT. Go out and get some exercise! For me, it's swimming and diving and walking and biking! I love to be in the water, and running really isn't my thing. It makes you feel really good, and it's super healthy....obviously.

(one of my senior pictures)

Fifth: Find something small and become obsessed with it. You know how people say, "It's the little things in life...." Yeah well that is true as it turns out. I have this thing for earrings and headbands. I have wayyy too many.. But, they make me happy! (And now I am really easy to shop for ;)) I always carry an extra headband on me, and without my "ear decorations", I feel naked... 

Erik and I had fun on Toga day :) *Note the headband and the feather earrings.

Finally number six: MUSIC. And I cannot say this enough. Music will always help with ANY situation. (My opinion.) So I am obsessed beyond obsessed with Coldplay. And their music is so universal to me that I always have them on repeat on my iPod, (which is on me at all times btw.) Yeah, they kind of rock. Music will "heal the soul" and it can say what you can't. <3 I play three different instruments and hope to continue for well into the rest of my life.

I got Coldplay tickets for Christmas. NBD.

So this is all I have for today, kids. Six simple steps to becoming a happier, more relaxed person. This may not work for everyone, you need to find your own balance of loves in life.

Until next time you beautiful people,

-Sof



Also I dive or something.

I love these people, they're my second family.

This year's season was AWESOME.

Hello everyone! I thought I'd take a minute to give you yet another side of myself; the diver side. I am on my high school's swimming and diving team, and while our swimmers are always amazing, this year our divers really shone! We took places 1st, 2nd, 3rd and 4th at almost every meet including conference and sectionals along with setting three records! Four of us went to state, and we took places 3rd, (Greysen Hertting) 6th, (myself) 7th, (Hazel Hertting) and 12th (Mollie Patzke). I am so proud of my teammates, and it was a wonderful way to end my high school diving career and hopefully help the transition into a collegiate one!

In order: 1st to 4th: Greysen Hertting, Sofia White (me), Hazel Hertting, Mollie Patzke

All I need to know.

All I really need to know about how to live and what to do and how to be I learned in kindergarten. Wisdom was not at the top of the graduate-school mountain, but there in the sandpile at Sunday School. These are the things I learned:

Share everything.
Play fair.
Don't hit people.
Put things back where you found them.
Clean up your own mess.
Don't take things that arent yours.
Say you're sorry when you hurt someone.
Wash your hands before you eat.
Flush.
Warn cookies and cold milk are good for you. :-)
Take a nap every afternoon.
Live a balanced life--learn some and think some and draw and paint and sing and dance and play and
work some every day.
Be aware of wonder. Remember the little seed in the styrofoam cup: the roots go down and the plant goes up and nobody really knows how or why, but we are all like that.
Goldfish and hamsters and white mice and even the little seed in the styrofoam cup--they all die.
...So do we.
When you go out in the world, watch out for traffic, hold hands, and stick together.

Peaceful sleeping.

Everyone should have a dreamcatcher.

Atlas Hands by Benjamin Francis Leftwich

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pyue2N1XZ0M

If you don't know this song already, it is beautiful. As is all of his music.

Snapshot of me.

I don't speak numbers. Math and science aren't really my favorite. I have hurt people in my past. I don't think I'm all too gorgeous or lovely or what have you, compliments usually embarrass me. I'm so clumsy and sometimes I say dumb things. I write because I like to, not because I think I am good at it. I have way too much to say, and I write way too much, including about thirteen filled notebooks of poetry and prose. I compare myself to others. Sometimes I'm too loud because my ADHD kicks in. I shake a lot but I don't do drugs. Haven't ever had the desire to. A lot of times I don't think I'm good enough, most of the time I'm not. These sentences are very choppy but who gives a shmallow. I'm scared of being alone, I'll always be okay though. Sometimes I cry, but I've gotten better at not. I'm excellent at bottling up my emotions. That's a terrible talent to have. I always wish on 11:11. I've got a love affair with words, it's pretty serious. I wish I was better at singing. I'm strong. I am obsessed beyond obsessed with music. I love kids and they usually love me. That's all I really want out of life, you know. To be loved. I despise hospitals and cops make me uneasy. I love getting lost in books. I pay more attention than others. Notice a lot of things nobody else would even care to. Call it perceptible. I care about people too much. More than myself. My own pain doesn't scare me but other's does. Maybe I'll put that in my book. Oh that reminds me, I love reading. And outdoors and stargazing and antiques and dancing even though I'm terrible at it. Because dancing requires grace which isn't something I normally possess. I'm quirky, but witty. I've been abandoned a couple of times. This is a snapshot of me. Sometimes I forget who I am, sometimes I let myself get away, sometimes listing who you are down gives you a new perspective. So here's nothing, ladies and gents. Fare thee well and good day.

-Sof